Strive So Hard

I wrote this a while ago... but what do you think?

If I didn't have such an

incredible yearning for you

I wouldn't be in this

mode of obsession.

Maybe if I could stop

I wouldn't be so paranoid.

Constant questions flow

through me and escape

without want.

I am so uncontrollable...

my love for you pulls me

way under, drowning

my mind entirely.

Even so,

I want you so much...

I wish that it wouldn't show.

Don't give mind to my

constant worries... I'll try

to vanish them.

The fears push and

rush in, but why?

The words whisper

repetitively keeping me

awake, but why?

I strive too hard and

it hurts... I'm beginning to

slowly slip into constant

pain until I overload...

until I scream.

Hold me...

I want this to go away.

Soon... thats what

I tell myself.

Soon... is what

they say.

No matter how much

more I hurt I refuse

to go.

Without your endearing

smile I can't even live.

Just a little longer...

I will ignore it for now.

I must give myself a rest.

Message in a Bottle

Three years are gone

now and I still

haven't seen you.

You said you'd come

back to me, my love.

I'm still waiting

I want to see your

lovely smile...

The one you gave

me before you set

sail on that rainy

day in April.

The sky was darker

then it ever was.

Remember?

Yuor lips tasted like

sea salt...

I used to hate that.

Now I long for it.

The sea is my home

now, just like it

always was to you.

Eighteen Years Lost

On the bridge of his
adulthood, a boy of
darkness stood in the
grave site of his beloved.
One solitary black rose
clasped in his hand.
His tears feed its open
mouth as a river of
blood stained the stem.
A single rose petal fell
from his fingertips as he
slowly peeled another away.
The shattering ice from the
branches of the sorrowful trees
was heard, echoing all about.
The deathbed was scattered
with pedals he disposed.
They were soon swept away
in the chilly wind like
his memories.
Nothing was left but the
boy and his abandon heart...
Kneeling before the
mound of dirt.

Karin -Usui-kuns Evil Angel

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ANNA TSUCHIYA inspi' NANA(BLACK STONES)~Rose/Zero StreetLive

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